Chicken Salad Reflections

Something I ate last night did not sit well with me. In fact, for a minute, my slightly hypochondriatic self was worried I was getting the stomach bug. However, while I sat up and waited for my trusty Zofran to kick in, I had some time to reflect on some other things that didn't sit well with me as far as the person I was in 2013... And the first couple of days in 2014 :/

I didn't really make resolutions this year. One, I'm pregnant, so no weight loss goals for me until about April. Two, we moved to a new house over the past week, so my mind has been focused on putting things in their proper places and also trying to listen to my family when they told me to slow down. Last night, though, I had some time to think about how I want my 2014 to look, and I realized that my nausea could also be related to some yucky habits I allowed myself to take part in as of late. So, here we go with a few goals for the "2014 Me":

1--No more gossiping- I always feel bad when I talk about people because I know better. I'm a Christian, so I know that I'm sinning when I don't follow the "T.E.N.K." rule, and yet I ignore that fact sometimes to say the funny thing or share the juicy story. What kind of example would I be setting for my child if he/she were already here to witness this? My chicken salad took quite a tumble in my stomach at that realization. Thankfully, most of my friends are also Believers, so I'm not turning a non-believer away when I have gossiped to friends, but I'm definitely not encouraging their walks or mine when we talk about others. In fact, I'm stopping us both right in our tracks, rendering us useless in furthering God's Kingdom. Cue another wave of nausea. But, just like Zofran eased my stomach pains, I have a remedy for my mistakes. My Savior. I ran to Him and asked for forgiveness. Then I told myself that in this New Year, I am going to focus on abolishing that habit from my life. Unless it's True, Encouraging, Necessary, and Kind, it's not coming out of my mouth. I don't have the strength to do this on my own, so Praise The Lord for a God who steps in to help me accomplish this goal.

2--Less Talking about Me- I realize a blog may be a contradiction to this resolution, but you know what I mean here. I recognized a pattern in the way my conversations have gone lately that I am always wanting to get my funny story in or share my opinion about whatever the topic is. I know, from the other side of the convo, that it's never fun to talk to an "I person, but I'm being the "I person" too! Yuck... I want to concentrate more on listening this year and less on getting my story in. After all, in a few short months, I'll be a mother (which means I won't have time to listen OR talk to any of you people anymore anyway) Just kidding. But I will have a little one that needs my attention and needs me to listen to him or her, so why not practice on the big people in the world, first?! 

3--More Focusing on The Husband- S and I have a really great relationship now. He's truly my best friend, and we have a lot of fun together. However, our lives are about to become very different (wonderful different, but different nonetheless) so this resolution is more of a reminder to continue making "us" a priority. While S and I are beyond thrilled to be parents, I also want to make sure I continue to make him feel important too. Even little things can make a person feel valued, so I want to keep doing the little things for him to let him know he's still my main man! :) This may even include letting him pick where we stop on the road to eat, which my "only-child upbringing" seriously frowns at. Not my best quality. So, get ready, Honey, we're going to Arby's! :) 

4--Maybe no Chicken Salad for a while- Seriously. The thought of this food kinda makes me queasy even today as I write about it. Not sure if this is a pregnancy food aversion or if it was a bad batch that would've gotten anybody. Either way...it's off the menu for a little bit. Unless S wants it, then I'll make some for him. See 2014 Me Resolution #3 :) 

As already stated, I am so grateful that I don't have to attempt these goals on my own. What a blessing to be the child of a Father who not only understands my weaknesses but sees me at my "sickest" and still loves me unconditionally. I will have to bring these weaknesses before Him every day, and I know that He will always give me the strength I need to attack them head on. 

So there you have it. Truth and self-reflection out of Nausea. What more can you ask of a sandwich?